I was clutching my beer, wide eyed. Choked with astonishment. I lightened up, it was so obvious it must have been amusing. Glad I wasn't there looking at myself from the outside - I was so pleased and expectant again.
Nice walk in the park, few cigarettes and a beer - back to the hotel room, this time intentions clear, or so I thought. But no word was waisted - I didn't want to say anything and he didn't say anything either. We went back to bed. He put his arm on me. But nowhere mischievious - just casually on my blanket. Flicker in the other hand, changing the channel on boredom telly. I mean, what exciting is there on the TV in hotel rooms? Apart from porn, of course, but you'd have to pay for that and he didn't like to pay for anything.I was waiting, and my time to leave was getting nearer.
So I realized if I want to become rotten, I will have to initiate it.
I said, into the sound of drilling from the street and the buzz of the german version of ' I want to be a millionaire': "If you want a warm welcome next week, you will have to say a warm goodbye to me, you know".
Looked at me with astonishment. By than I knew I had it in my hand: "What do you mean?" He knew what I meant.
"If you are so clever I am sure you can work it out."
He kissed me. I was surprised. Not having much experience with stuff such as having sex with different people, I thought it will be just carnage without any kissing. But he quite enthusiastically kissed me and I kissed him back and it was all very pleasant and quite exciting and didn't feel like I am in the wrong at all. Oh, god I wasnt.
Nice walk in the park, few cigarettes and a beer - back to the hotel room, this time intentions clear, or so I thought. But no word was waisted - I didn't want to say anything and he didn't say anything either. We went back to bed. He put his arm on me. But nowhere mischievious - just casually on my blanket. Flicker in the other hand, changing the channel on boredom telly. I mean, what exciting is there on the TV in hotel rooms? Apart from porn, of course, but you'd have to pay for that and he didn't like to pay for anything.I was waiting, and my time to leave was getting nearer.
So I realized if I want to become rotten, I will have to initiate it.
I said, into the sound of drilling from the street and the buzz of the german version of ' I want to be a millionaire': "If you want a warm welcome next week, you will have to say a warm goodbye to me, you know".
Looked at me with astonishment. By than I knew I had it in my hand: "What do you mean?" He knew what I meant.
"If you are so clever I am sure you can work it out."
He kissed me. I was surprised. Not having much experience with stuff such as having sex with different people, I thought it will be just carnage without any kissing. But he quite enthusiastically kissed me and I kissed him back and it was all very pleasant and quite exciting and didn't feel like I am in the wrong at all. Oh, god I wasnt.
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